Randomly Ranting Relentlessly

[blackhazel]

And give me one good reason why I shouldn't hate you all. You're pretending and you don't even know who you are I'm a cynic from the beginning but you wouldn't know anything about that now would you just because I'm different I'll lose to high competition and find a sharp knife and then...This place has nothing to offer it's a stagnant hellhole and I'd hate to claim it as my hometown "You should immediately tell a psychiatrist after the first time you have suicidal thoughts" well I guess I'm a little overdue blame school and MCR I know I'm staining these innocent sheets of paper with soem of the most powerful words you'll never read this page might be black by the time I'm done (but hey, not like you'll ever see it) I can't even begin to tell you the things I've been thinking--correction: I won't even begin to telly ou the things I've been thinking "Headfirst For Halos" is beginning to look pretty good right now I don't even like you I just want you to see me but you won't and you can't (but I don't want to be a stupid girl) I just hope that you don't catch me staring anytime soon (er or later) I'm not pretty enough for anyone who's worth something 'cause if you were you'd like one of them diaries are so impersonal if I could only blur these thoughts and hang them on the wall I would because anything can be art can't it? I know you'll never love me but a girl can dream...blank blue lines are so intimidating I must look so dumb to you but it makes no sense in my head (it's all up here) do I look like I'm kidding it's funny how I can't place the blame on my tainted past there's not a tomorrow and you just say "awesome" and blow me off and to say I don't care about you? Never, no never it's the other way I just can't go in I'm that extra puzzle piece that didn't fit if I gave you this would you understand never no never "inner turmoil" and that kind of BS isn't me I'm also spent there's one track left maybe if I'm lucky the CD will begin to skip is this how it always ends...?

[veronicababe99]

hmmmmm.......I like it (even tho it was completly pointless. )

You dont hate us really do u?

[trappedin_eternity]

love that one too babe...approprietly titled...random and relentless..i believe there were a few references to me and ele in there..??;)

[blackhazel]

this is to bloodloss:
you do realize that the title is RANDOMLY RANTING RELENTLESSLY?!?!?
emphasis on the words RANDOMLY and RANTING
what happens when you rant?
does it usually have a unifying point?!?!
you chew on that for a while.

to veronicababe99:
this is directed at the idiots at my school.
not anyone on this site.
i think you are probably all wonderful people.

to trappedin_eternity:
you and ele?...
hehe
no...*cough*
and thanks
you had better keep writing eternal
i dont have a book to read right now
so your story is my book
in daily installments
lol

smooches
the Natmeister

[trappedin_eternity]

ok works for me..i do need some loyal readers...
don't worry...several of my rants (poems) included references to you...you'll never see them though..there some about ele too..but she'll never know where...hehe. and for the most part they were about the crap with megan and shit like that...nothing terribly bad about you...anyway. i love you wery wery much grande (excuse the german) (yes, i know it's actually spanish) (that's not the point, as it's a beach ball)the darkling
working on eternal now

[blackhazel]

you love parentheses, dont you ray.
nothing terribly bad about you either
unless you consider what i said terribly bad
that was just when the whole punk thing was kinda getting on my nerves
because
(im sorry in advance if i offend anyone)
it all seemed kinda fake
nut maybe thats just snelson
and since you fit in with the people like that at snelson
you seemed kinda fake too
of course, i dont think that *often* now
smooches
the Natmeister

[trappedin_eternity]

it was definitly snelson...as i said, here, we get called emo because apparently, we cut ourselves...gr. stupid judgemental little hefiers...oh well. and i'm glad i no longer fit in..finally i'm doing what i wanted to do the enitre time, not fit in! yay being different...